Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Get up and walk! Move on!

I fell this past few days. I was back to my old self of 2009 for quite sometime, and I fell awful and couldn't forgive myself these days. I knew that I am free from the slavery and bondage of that addiction. Yet again I fell.

I fell because there's a thought that appear on my mind. It said "It's okay, everyone does that." But It's not okay. I was set apart, even before when I was in my mother's womb. How can I be set apart when I just keep doing what the world does.

Thank God that somehow I was reminded that there's no use in dwelling in your mistake. It's time to get up and move on. I was reminded that I was forgiven by God's grace. The thing that I can do is to walk closer with Him so that I won't fall again in the future.

I hope I won't follow my animalistic desire. I want to prove that the world theory that human was originated from animal are wrong. We are created based on our Creator image. We have capability to discern, not like animal. We were made perfect.

Like Switchfoot said "We were meant to live for so much more." I believe that I'm not created for just to keep doing that disgusting thing until I die. I was made for greater purpose.

Friday, December 24, 2010


Some of my friends put on their facebook status how they are going to spend their Christmas and / or their Christmas gift wish list. What a privilege. They must know that they are very much blessed. I'm not gonna be whiny about that privilege that I don't have, because I know I'm blessed far beyond anything. I hope they won't be feeling down easily in the future, for some petty reason. At least they don't need to worry about whether they are able to have food tomorrow, or to cut up their meal frequency because they have no money. Ah, too much ranting...

Oh yeah, Merry Christmas everyone!
Have a great and blessed one.

Hope I won't messed up on Christmas Service

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Ah, Childhood...

Ah, How I wish I can go back to my childhood. It was really a great time of my life, nothing to be worried about. I didn't worry about bill, I didn't need to worry about what am I going to eat for lunch or dinner, I didn't worry about future, and I didn't even worry about relationship with people. Heck I'd never worried about anything. Just live a carefree life, playing with friends until dusk, and watching cartoon. It felt really good.

And now, I can be qualified as grown up. I have to worry about money, worry about my relationship with people, and worry about my future. But, the only thing I know is just to surrender everything to the One and only that gives me hope, because He had brought me here, without me realizing that I'm blessed beyond anything that I can say.

Childhood is awesome!

Time to go back to work...

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

ZoukOut Weekend!

My friends and I won some video competition by Zouk + MTV, and the prize was awesome! We got free flights, free hotel stay at Resorts World, free party at Zouk and free ZoukOut pass with VIP Tag. Here's the video mentioned.

The hotel was super awesome. And we got some freebies too. Lots of drinks! Thank God I didn't use up all the free drinks. Thus I was sober until the party ends in the morning.

The highlight of the night is taking picture with VJ Holly. Remember my celebrity crush I mentioned in my entry last time. I couldn't get her cute face outta my mind. She was really cute with her dress and tattoos.

It makes me want to have tattoo as well. I was looking to some tattoo design, and this design captured my mind.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

The mysterious chanting

Finally, I have the guts to check the mysterious Chanting that's been happening in UG for quite some time. Apparently, it's not the empty unit that I suspected. It came from the top floor where a lot of people gathered and chanting together. Hmm, I wonder what is that. From what I saw outside they love Crocs.

They chanted today on 07th December 2010. I really wonder what are they doing quite late while chanting and when are they going to do the chants next.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Ah nose, why are you so runny? :(

Just now I had some awesome Worship practice. Thank God my blocked nose and sore throat were not the obstacles of the practice. :D

Friday, December 3, 2010

My Heart is Yours!

Today (2nd December 2010) was not so great day for me. I fell deep..... again. I feel so worthless and couldn't face anyone. I feel so embarrassed, feel disgust to myself. Feel like such a hypocrite.

When I listened to Paramore's old song My Heart. There's a part of the lyrics that really hit me. "...That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone..." I really can't do this alone. I need Your help. I believe You will help me just like last time...